The Distracted Life

I used to live for distractions before I started living for Christ. I had to. I needed something to take my mind and heart off of the nagging feeling that something was missing in my soul.

Living Distracted

I used to live for distractions before I started living for Christ. I had to. I needed something to take my mind and heart off of the nagging feeling that something was missing in my soul.

I desperately wanted to deny the fact that my life seemed to lack purpose, that I was simply an object floating aimlessly on a breeze.

knew who Jesus was, and I knew there was none other like him, but I did not want him to be the answer. In my selfish mindset, I was afraid that I would have to give up too much of what I loved about life, which was truly ironic since none of it was making me happy.

But I had a stubborn heart, and I was determined to live as I wanted, so denial became part of my life.

I found that by distracting myself with all things other than the eternal, my heart could be tricked into contentedness for awhile. I threw myself into social events, entertainment, and busywork and relied on those things to keep me occupied.

The more I had on my plate, the less I would have time to think about those nagging feelings in my soul. Click To Tweet

The more I had on my plate, the less I would have time to think about those nagging feelings in my soul.

Above all, in my self-consumed bubble, I convinced myself to live for the moment and not to worry about what the future might bring, as if somehow consequences did not exist.

Looking back now, what a glaring warning sign that should have been that I was on the wrong track, for a purpose-filled life must always begin with eyes set on the eternal.

Living for What Matters

It only took me a decade or two to realize what deception I had been embracing in my life. And when I did, I was quite sickened by the notion that I had wasted so much of my life on what did not matter.

After so many years of living in denial, I finally realized deep in my soul that Jesus truly was the answer. Click To Tweet

After so many years of living in denial, I finally realized deep in my soul that Jesus truly was the answer.

And looking back, I could now see how Jesus had been whispering that truth to me all along.

Oh how faithless I had been to him, yet how faithful he was to me! His arms were wide open as I came running back to him. The power of his love struck me with such clarity as I considered how vastly higher his love is than anything I could ever give.

No one but him could endure such neglect, rebellion, and selfishness, and then in the blink of an eye, produce such forgiveness.

After being awakened to God’s love and washed clean by his amazing grace, I no longer needed distractions.

In fact, now I do everything I can to run from them. When I feel that the business of life is trying to consume me and that my calendar is filled with far too many activities that could carry me away from God, I make a deliberate decision to make it stop.

Filling Up My Days

For I want my days to be filled up with the plans he has for me, not ones that simply keep me busy and running toward things that are less than eternal.

God, in his great compassion, has transformed my heart to turn more instinctively toward him each day.

Of course there are still many other competing voices and temptations that try to lead me away, but it is getting easier for me to say no. I will undoubtedly falter sometimes and disappoint myself, but his faithfulness will never leave me and his forgiveness will always stand true.  

And as I walk the path he has prepared for me on this earth, he thrills me with small victories each step of the way to give me a glimpse of the eternal glory I will one day have with him.

Praise be to God, for his goodness and love last forever!

 

Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Psalm 62:5

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever. Psalm 136:1

Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you. Job 22:21

7 thoughts on “The Distracted Life

  1. Thanks for sharing, Jill. I posted it on FB because I think a lot of people will understand exactly what you are talking about. May it cause many to think and “turn their hearts toward home.” I am sure your parents are proud of you (the right kind of pride). I am too! Give em hugs for me.

  2. Mark says:

    Thanks Jill for the message. In my opinion you are hitting on the most important message of Christianity and honestly the common ideal of almost all religions…the ultimate truth that peace and happiness cannot be found in the things of this world. God created us to live in peace with him. It’s funny because we all used to live that way as children. We had an unshakable peace and just existed. Then as we get older we are told that happiness comes from success, relationships, possessions, etc. this creates the emptiness in our hearts because on a fundamental level this makes no sense to us. We may not say it directly but at our core we say, “I’m happy now, but now everyone else is telling me I can’t be happy unless I get good grades, make a lot of money, marry the perfect person, have a lot of friends, etc.” You can fill in the blanks with what you think brings you happiness. Because we have been conditioned in this way we forget that God intended for us to live in peace with him everyday of our lives. And the beautiful thing is this peace is available to us right now. When we live for God and submit to his will we forget about the things of this world. We realize any judgements we hold of ourselves or other people exist but ultimately are not truth. In Gods eyes we are all the same, created as part of nature, to worship/live in peace with his creation as Adam did in the garden. Realizing this can set you free. We can then begin to enjoy those moments when we think we have nothing to do. The mind can stop thinking it needs to be fulfilled by some future event of the world. To me this is fully living in the present.

    Paradoxically you felt you had to deny that you had no purpose and felt like and object floating in the wind. I say that it is okay to not have a purpose based on the things of this world and what’s wrong with being an object tossed around by the wind as long as that wind is the will of God. The dandelion seed that is seemingly blown aimless by the wind has a great purpose! It’s purpose is to sustain Gods creation through life. We are no different. Our minds just keep us from seeing this.

    Thanks for sharing.

  3. jwiebel says:

    Thanks Jill for sharing with us at Sitting Among Friends. We hope to see you back Wednesdays. I have missed seeing you and hanging out with you in great conversations.

  4. Marijon says:

    Beautiful post Jill. This morning I listened to a sermon and one of the things that stood out for me was that you can’t seek happiness in this world because you where not designed for this world, you where designed to seek God’s kingdom. This must be my message of the day. To fill my day with what God has inshore for my life. Thank you for your stunning writing.

    • Jill says:

      Thank you Marijon. It’s so true…we can only find what we are truly looking for when we seek God. Thanks so much for commenting!

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